Today I am starting my 21 day detox to hopefully kick start my body back to health. I have been having a lot of problems lately. The biggest of concern to me being that I can not seem to lose any weight. Two years ago when I did weight watchers and exercised it seemed to come off in a fairly standard manner. It was hard but I got results so it made it worth it. At the first of this year I went off all candy...which should have helped me shed at least a few pounds given the shear amount of candy I normal ingest...but nope. I have actually gained more than a few pounds since the 1st of the year. And I have grown an entire size up. I have been working out hard and consistently and eating pretty good...but zero results. I don't feel better nor have a shed a single pound...in fact I gained a few more. So I am looking into other issues. Starting with what I am hoping is just a resistance of my body to sugar in all forms. So I am doing a 21 day cleanse to get it all out and hopefully reset my system. This will no doubt be one of the hardest things I have ever done. At least when I have done crazy things like this in the past I always gave myself the "but natural fruit sugar is ok" out. This time it is 0. I will basically be eating meat, nuts, veggies and eggs. I can eat beans but that isn't very fun without rice...Still waiting to hear if I am allowed quinoa or not. It is technically a grain but has lots of protein. So here I sit. Trying to think of anything other than food, which means all I am thinking about is food. I am going to try to find other ways...more healthy ways...to be kind to myself. I don't need sugar to make me feel good. I am addicted to sugar. It is my mood enhancer, my quick fix, my reward, my indulgence, but it isn't kind to me. It is destroying my body. I love my body. I love to be active. I love life. But lately I don't really love any of those things. I want to lay around all day and try to sleep. I am grouchy. I am depleted of all energy. I am going to make a list of things to do to be kind to my body that I am going to start incorporating back into my life...
- yoga...Ok I know it sounds hokey but I used to do yoga and I loved it...I went today for the first time in years and it was great! Hard and painful but very good for me! I am going to incorporate it at least once a week into my life.
- Climbing. I love to climb. I get a much better high from climbing than sugar ever provided. I am going to start climbing again even if I have to do it alone.
- working in my flower beds. Thankfully it is that time of year again when I can start prepping my flower beds. Being outside is good for me and helps me feel energized. Making my home beautiful gives me a sense of accomplishment.
- reading. I love to read but have not taken much time to do it lately. I am going to start by finishing the book I am currently reading, "The Continuous Atonement" after this one I would like to read "the Infinite Atonement" I also want to read "The Book Thief". I also want to read more to my girls. I would like to spend time everyday reading. We read frequently but not every day. I would like to change that. I used to read to Tien every day but now I don't. I want to do that again.
- walking. I have stopped walking over the winter. I am going to begin again. I would like to go walking at least 3 times a week for at least 30 minutes.
- ride horses. now that spring is here I need to work it out with my friend Debbie to go riding again.
- Steam room. I love steam rooms and my gym has one but I never take the time to use it. I will start using it at least once a week.
All of these things are things that I can do to be kinder to myself that actually promote wellness within me. They are all things I deeply enjoy.
